"Consecration" by Rhiannon Adrielle (ISSUE 1-MAY 26')

I swallowed God whole and he curdled into guilt. My knees are raw and the pews are worn. My voice can barely scream anymore.

I am God's little lamb, all pretty and perfect. He will let me graze and he will proclaim to the crowds that he is my Shepherd. There is nothing more that I shall want. I want to be free. Out of this field. Away from you.

My knees are raw and the pews are worn. My voice can barely scream anymore.

My God wants me for himself. If I am not his then what am I. My God will scream and shout and cry and throw a tantrum. My lord will never beg me to stay. My lord will never reason. He will only scream. A piercing agonizing scream. Like a martyr.

My knees are raw and the pews are worn. My voice can barely scream anymore.

My lord will rip out my white milky fur. He will cut my tail and keep ripping and ripping until I am pink and raw and bald. He will tie my legs and arms and place me above the open spit. The fire will burn and my lord will tell me to repent. He will tell the crowds that he is purifying me. Making me holy. The fire is getting hotter and hotter and my pink skin is turning crisp and brown and I will bleat. Oh lord I will bleat. But he will cast a deaf ear unto me. My lord will eat me in secret. Skin and flesh. Body and blood. Mind and soul.

My knees are raw and the pews are worn. My voice can barely scream anymore.

ARTIST BIO:

“Hii loves♡ I'm Rhiannon and I love writing. I’m drawn to stories that are a little soft, a little unsettling, and that linger long after you're done reading. I mostly write from observation, turning small moments into something, even if it’s slightly off.”

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"Rhiannon is a gift, her words touch your heart, your stomach and your mind, her work is so emotion evoking and raw, with beautiful imagery and perfect prose, her work is an unsettling feeling laced in comfort" -Hayes Marie -- Founder of Stargirl Collective